When I walked into his new condo, downtown Minneapolis, I was immediately impressed. It was curated as only Ken could do. Right down to the last detail. Just as he had curated each show in Anne’s lovely gallery by Lake Minnetonka. It smelled fantastic, that mixture of clean and possible — you know, the kind of light fragrance that just makes you want to dress better. “Sex and the City” was looping on the television screen. The lighting — just enough to highlight the art and keep your skin tones youthful. The bathroom – manicured. The bedroom – so warm, pillowed. And there it was. Framed. On the shelf. My poem, “Again.”
Again, I live this day
for the first time.
I feel the possibility of this brand new sky, again,
and I make promises to the world and myself
that I will make the most of this moment
again and again.
And I make the same mistakes for the first time –
and I cry old tears – and smile new hopes –
and I try and I laugh and I hurt,
and I pray for answers to the same old questions,
asked again and again –
when the answer is still and again – love.
I am blanketed by the night sky
and dream sweet and scared
and happy again – to wake to this day
for the first time –
to live in the possibility of this brand new sky,
and love, like I never thought I would, again.
Whenever I see this poem, I think of him. He is living his life in fabulous Ken fashion. As flamboyant and imperfect as only he can. And I saw him — not the curated version, not his sparkles, or feathered hats, or flashes of orange and prescriptionless glasses — I saw him.
This morning, I page through my book, “An imperfect life,” and I read this poem and others. Each a snapshot of people I’ve seen. I’ve known. And what an honor it is. I read, “Hit by a train,” and I am with my Aunt Kay. I read, “Grace sat with me,” and I am with my grandmother. “The truth about you” — my mother. “Big girl world” — my Aunt Karolynn. What a joy it is to see people. To know people. What a privilege when they invite you in. Ask you to stay.
I breathe in the morning air. Ready. Again. Eat croissants with the one I love. Open. Again. To see the beauty of this imperfect day. “To live in the possibility of this brand new sky, and love!
Good morning world! I see you!