Jodi Hills

So this is who I am – a writer that paints, a painter that writes…


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Bloom of voice and thunder.

I pillowed my ears between two couch cushions as the thunder cracked and the lightning flashed through my grandma’s living room. “Would the cows be ok?” I asked her. “Safe in the barn,” she said.

“And the car?”
“In the garage.”

“And grandpa?”
“Smoking his pipe in the basement.”

She patiently had an answer for each one on my list. But surely not the flowers, I thought. They couldn’t possibly be ok. I peaked my head through the front entry door. They were closed and slightly bent as the storm raged around them. “Are they dead?” I asked. “No, just waiting. You’ll see in the morning.”

I slept on the sofa that night. Grandpa snored in the next room. Grandma rolled. I waited under covers.

The first light cracked through the door we never used, giving sound to Grandma in the kitchen. I raced through to the side door. Tiptoed lightly, tickling the wet grass and stood in front of the sun-lit front stairs flanked by flowers. Straight, strong and wide open! I could not only see them, but hear them!

I marked my return to the kitchen with prints of little wet toes. “They’re good, aren’t they?” “Yes!” I agreed.

Oh, the storms I can create in the middle of the night, even still. I go through my lists and cover myself back to sleep. All part of the growth inside. Knowing the storm will end, light will come, and this bloom of voice and thunder, was about to be heard.


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The knowing smile.

My mother had two Uncle Wallys, two Aunt Lavinas, two Aunt Christines, a sister Kay and a sister-in-law Kay, a brother Tom and a son Tom. I was able to navigate this from the age of five during summer reunions on my grandparents’ farm, so I’m not sure why it came as such a shock to find two other girls named Jodi (well, neither spelled their name correctly) in my entering class at Washington Elementary.

When I shared the news with my mother, books dropped to the floor, hands raised, voice raised, completely aghast, I couldn’t believe that she didn’t share my full bodied frustration. She knelt down to become face to face. She smoothed her hands from my shoulders down to my wrists, relaxing my arms once again to their sides. I matched her slow breathing. Her lips began to turn up at the corners, just ever so slightly. She had perfected and taught me this the first time I fell from my training-wheeled bike — the art of the slow smile. Cheeks creased and teeth exposed, she said only one thing, my name, “Jodi…”  

I returned to class. Through each grade, each classroom, each teacher, I never mistook the calling of the two other girls. They didn’t, couldn’t, share my name. There was a sound to it, that was only mine. I suppose that is all I will ever hear, all I ever need to hear, when someone calls my name — the sound of my mother’s voice. 

I recently got two new plants to replace the ailing fern in our library (who was named Fern). I named them Cousin Fern, and Little Baby Cousin Fern. Watering them slowly this morning, I could feel my lip corners rising, not because I’m certain they know who they are, but because I’m certain of who I am. My mother saw to that. 


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O’Keeffe and Ukraine.

I’m currently reading the book, “The Other Side of the Painting,” by Wendy Rodrigue. An accomplished art historian, she is also the wife of George Rodrigue, the Louisiana artist widely known for his Blue Dog series.  I have never really been a fan of his work, so you might be curious why I would read this book. I am a fan of Louisiana, the culture, the history, and all things art. She explores in this book, not just her husband’s work, but explores his education, influences, from famous artists to the Cajun culture. All good information. There is one thing though, that I don’t agree with, that stops me long enough to write this, and that is his disregard for Georgia O’Keeffe. And it’s a pretty strong disregard — probably more accurately, a dislike. I happen to like her – probably more accurately, really like her. Now, certainly, Georgia O’Keeffe does not need me to come to her defense. She has stood the test of time, her art, her lifestyle. She, in my opinion, and that of most of the artworld, is far more accomplished than George Rodrique, so what does it matter? Why would I bother to voice my opinion, my respect? Why would I stand up for her? Sometimes, I think, what we stand for, says as much about us, as the other person, or the situation. Who we are, as humans, shows through. 

Once again, or still, or on top of, we find ourselves in a global crisis. So in my humble, humble voice, I say that I stand with and for the Ukrainian people. I believe in peace. Humanity. I even believe that the most humble of voices matter. So I stand. I listen. I read. I pray. 

Georgia O’Keeffe writes, “I have been absolutely terrified every moment of my life and I’ve never let it keep me from doing a single thing I wanted to.” I want to be brave. I want us all to be brave. To believe! To let our humanity shine through. It has to matter. Please, let us stand!