There is a light that comes through one of our smallest windows. It angles just enough to pass its bedroom door. Past the open hallway door. Beyond the closets. Landing directly on Margaux’s face as she leans toward the water. Something happens to my heart when I see it. All I want is to capture it. This warmth. And I have tried with my phone. My iPad. Our 35mm camera. Nothing. It tells me, time and time again, to just be in it. So I stand, quietly, enough to the side not to block, enough in the path, to feel it on my shoulder. 

And isn’t that the way of love.

I used to try to fight it, draped in the beam of my mother’s memory. Then I tried to gather it all in. Neither were possible. I don’t always get it right, but mostly now, I simply let it shine. Let her shine. Never to block. Never to capture. But simply feel. And I tell you, it is a warmth, like no other. That only the heart can see.