Jodi Hills

So this is who I am – a writer that paints, a painter that writes…


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Fundamental.

The thing was, you had to be a reader to even understand the advertisement. A book was always within arms reach, so when it aired in between Saturday morning cartoons, promoting books, I rose up from my “head in elbowed arms” position and got a little closer to the television. “Reading is fundamental,” they said. I didn’t bother to ask my mother. I had been trained by Mrs. Bergstrom at Washington Elementary, and my mother repeated it daily, so I raced to the bookshelf to pull out the giant red dictionary to “Look it up.” I put my index finger in the section marking the “f”s. My finger traced through the pages as I sounded out the words. Fe, Fo, fun, funda, fundamental! Important, necessary, I was in agreement with it all. I ran to the laundry room. Saturday meant cartoons for me, and laundry for my mother. Her head bent over pulling clothes out of the dryer, I eagerly tapped her shoulder. “Reading is fundamental,” I said proudly. “It is,” she smiled, still filling her basket. I asked her about her next load, working fundamental into the conversation, remembering that to make a word your own, you had to use it three times. I often went to four or five, just to make sure. Satisfied that I had gained ownership, I went back to the tv. I saw my library book there. I turned off the set. Grabbed my book and went back to the laundry room. Nothing was more necessary, nor more important than she was. “I better read to you,” I said. She smiled and listened. We both leaned against the rumble of the washer, gathered in the greatest importance. Together. 


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Cardinals.

I suppose we could have been called anything, and I would have loved it, but we were Cardinals, so the moment I put on the red uniform, for volleyball, basketball, track, band, whatever, whenever, I, we, represented Independent School District #206, and proudly became those beautiful red birds. 

We shortened everything. Perhaps we were in such a hurry to grow up. The name of the town, Alexandria, became Alex, and then simply Alek. Cardinals became Cards, always led with a “Go!” I see the urgency now. To get somewhere. To win. And now, it all seems like a fluttering, a blur of red and black wings. 

The Alexandria Boys’ Basketball team won the state championship this weekend. I don’t live there anymore. Not even in the country. The high school that I went to has been torn down. I can’t name a player on this year’s team. But somehow, magically, in that winning flutter, I am part of the we — the “We did it!” 

Perhaps more than any team, I think the same when remembering my mother. With each victory big or small. Selling a painting, surviving a hard situation, conquering a fear, just being happy for no reason on a Monday morning — I look to the heavens and joyfully say, “We did it!”

We are only as strong as our connections. They don’t have to be cardinals, but they should lift you, help you reach things you never even imagined. They should be the ones you look to, recognize, call you by name, ever tell you, “one way or another, we are going to fly!”


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Socked and smiling.

If we gave them any thought, we didn’t think they were cool. And certainly we wouldn’t have worn them outside of our Junior High Gym class. So I’m not sure why I love them now. But I do! These retro gym socks. Both my friend and I bought two pairs. And it’s not like I feel younger, they aren’t magic socks. I don’t long for the days when the girls had their own pink gym in the basement while the boys used the beautiful gym with the shiny hardwoods and bleachers. (Oh, sure they brought us up once a year to join in the square dancing mini course for a couple of days, but that was not the nod we were looking for.) So why the love? I’m hoping the answer comes as I type. I suppose you could brush it off as nostalgia, but that’s an awfully wide net. Maybe all fashion (and I use the term loosely) comes ‘round again. Maybe everything deserves a second look. We have the choice now, and that could be the difference. We didn’t have the choice then. Cycle days three and five, you raced to the gym and put on your gym clothes for the allotted 45 minutes and then threw them, abandoned them, for the outfit you picked out frantically while the bus was wheeling up your gravel road, and you wore that outfit, however modest, to algebra or social studies, and smoothed down the goucho pants, or Levi’s, and sat proudly in your decision. 

I guess love of any kind can’t be forced. It comes in its time. And really needs no explanation, only joy. So I put on my socks and smile. I text my friend and she has them on too, and we’re giddy as school girls. We’re happy, and we don’t really need to know why.