Jodi Hills

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Never ending Dixie.

Driving through Bryce Canyon and the Dixie National Forest is a process not unlike one step forward and two steps back — only it’s more one drive left, one drive right and a tiny bit ahead. Traversing the landscape, all be it gorgeous, was truly a test on my already fragile equilibrium. 

As someone who travels a good deal, you probably wouldn’t imagine that I often struggle with motion sickness. To put it in perspective, even parking ramps can take a minimal toll. It is a battle of wills. My stomach eagerly works its way up past my heart on its journey to my throat. “You still have the wheel,” my brain tells my heart. And the words of Georgia O’Keeffe, are on continuous replay, “ I’ve been absolutely terrified every moment of my life – and I’ve never let it keep me from doing a single thing I wanted to do.”  And we inch forward, passing yet another sign for Dixie.That may sound a bit dramatic. I’m not actually terrified of the mountains, the road, the curves, but more of my reaction to them. Oh, I have to read that again — “but more of my reaction to them.” It wasn’t exactly where I thought this was going, but there it is.  I suppose that’s always the way, isn’t it? Our reactions. A battle of wills. We are thrown curve after curve in this life. They come and go, but it’s how we react that can be ever so lasting. So lasting that when we finally get to the glorious straight and easy path, we are still going over it. Oh, for the love of Dixie! — please let me have the sense to let things go. To not clog one day’s journey with the last. 
With Georgia still on my mind, I think that today, no matter the view, I will create something beautiful! 


And on this journey, this fabulous drive, maybe your “last chance Texaco” is really just another chance. You fill up, pull out, and go. And you can go. You can always go. You go on. You live. Always another chance. Where did you learn that? Maybe those loving arms that you call home. The same ones that let you go. And hold you now.


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On the promised land.

I have climbed the Sainte Victoire mountain twice. Quite an elevation for these Minnesota legs! I suppose most people would think the hardest part is going up. Maybe I did too. But it wasn’t the case. Sure my muscles struggled, strained, even sang out a little, but it was on the way down that I cried, both times. Maybe it’s the weight of responsibility. This having “been to the mountaintop.” This knowing what it took to get there — not legs, nor muscles, but the heart, the will, the courage of all those that carried me before. Grandparents and mother, teachers and friends. Poets and preachers. Teammates and competitors. Painters and authors. Stories in every every voice and color. We don’t get anywhere alone. So I cried on the way down, fumbling, stumbling toward grace — not sad — it’s just that view, that view from gratitude is pretty spectacular!Dominique’s grandson had a paper to write on Martin Luther King. In English. Finally, I thought, I could be of assistance. I had seen these mountaintops. It’s difficult to find your worth in another language. When the children around you have a larger vocabulary. But this was my territory. School. Writing. An American story. In English. We worked through his paper together. Word by word. Step by step. He did well. What a view!

I think we focus so much in this life on how to climb up. And yes, that’s important. But we must not lose sight of what needs to be done once we get back down. What do we give? What do we share? Whose hands do we take as we turn around to make the climb again? 

I stumble through this language, this life, certainly, even scrape my knees on this promised land, but oh, the view, this glorious view from top to bottom, spectacular!