Jodi Hills

So this is who I am – a writer that paints, a painter that writes…


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The keeper of.

It’s just a small bundle of price tags. I found them in an old bureau. Having nothing to price, I began writing on them the things that are the most valuable to me. Tagging what I’m ever grateful for. My priceless. 

On my best days, I add to the list. Writing with a fever all the good things happening. On my other days, you know the ones, when you’re knee deep in all that otherness, I still have the hand and heart free to give the bundle a little shake, a little shake that reveals my growing everything. A revelation that makes me add to the list — wisdom — short for, “On the days that I can’t create something beautiful, at least let me have the wisdom to see it.”

Since creating my gratitags, one thing has become so clear. I am the author. The keeper of. It’s so easy to think someone else has the power to change your day, ruin your day. I’m as guilty as the next person, this giving it away. But then I see my tiny tags. Still all tied together. I step out of the other, into the everything, and I am gratefully whole. 


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On the promised land.

I have climbed the Sainte Victoire mountain twice. Quite an elevation for these Minnesota legs! I suppose most people would think the hardest part is going up. Maybe I did too. But it wasn’t the case. Sure my muscles struggled, strained, even sang out a little, but it was on the way down that I cried, both times. Maybe it’s the weight of responsibility. This having “been to the mountaintop.” This knowing what it took to get there — not legs, nor muscles, but the heart, the will, the courage of all those that carried me before. Grandparents and mother, teachers and friends. Poets and preachers. Teammates and competitors. Painters and authors. Stories in every every voice and color. We don’t get anywhere alone. So I cried on the way down, fumbling, stumbling toward grace — not sad — it’s just that view, that view from gratitude is pretty spectacular!Dominique’s grandson had a paper to write on Martin Luther King. In English. Finally, I thought, I could be of assistance. I had seen these mountaintops. It’s difficult to find your worth in another language. When the children around you have a larger vocabulary. But this was my territory. School. Writing. An American story. In English. We worked through his paper together. Word by word. Step by step. He did well. What a view!

I think we focus so much in this life on how to climb up. And yes, that’s important. But we must not lose sight of what needs to be done once we get back down. What do we give? What do we share? Whose hands do we take as we turn around to make the climb again? 

I stumble through this language, this life, certainly, even scrape my knees on this promised land, but oh, the view, this glorious view from top to bottom, spectacular!