Jodi Hills

So this is who I am – a writer that paints, a painter that writes…


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Nothing shy of super.


I bought a Bat Girl t-shirt at Ragstock yesterday. I like to give myself super powers. Wearing my sunglasses, I summon my best Anna Wintour. My gloves, Ava Gardner. I know it’s all internal, but I like to give it a name. Maybe we all do.

We went to Down in the Valley, the record store near Ragstock. It felt like a Time Machine. I thumbed through stacks, just like I did when there was nothing but time stretched far ahead of us. When we bought full albums at full price. Played it on the stereo. Lying heads beside giant speakers, feeling each note, each lyric as if it were written just for us. Wondering if our lives were soundtrack worthy. Willing to believe they were, and would be ever. 

My husband bought two Kris Kristoffersons. One for himself. One for his best friend from those days of lyrics and promise. I watched the man behind the counter place youth’s super power in the bag and hand it to Dominique.  

The afternoon sun bounced off of Highway 55 and we drove, each a little lighter, armed with nothing shy of super.


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Vikings in Wyoming.



I heard her before I saw her. The greeting came from the back of the store. I scanned through the Wyoming t-shirts and could see nothing but cowboys. “Here I am,” she said. I followed the voice below the racks this time, and I saw her — the tiniest woman, her smile actually bigger than her shoulders. I could see she was still tethered to the oxygen tank at the back of the store, but that was not going to stop her. She seemed genuinely delighted that we were there. She started with the usual questions, what brings you to town, where are you from… After we said France, the gates were opened! She had been to France, even to our area. She and her husband had taken their children. She was so proud that – as it should be! Before she told us she was 90, she made sure of the important things — like she was educated, she loved learning, she was still curious, and she loved to read. I said I loved to read as well, and she was off to the back room again to get her latest book — a hard cover, at least three pounds, about Vikings. She handed it to me, and told me I just had to read it! After taking a picture for a reminder, I asked if I should bring the book back to her office. “Oh no, she said, I may be 90, but I’m healthy — we were all looking at the green tube that connected her to the back room… “Oh, I shrunk so much that my esophagus and stomach are in my lungs, but I’m still strong. I love life.” She told us how she follows the news. Follows politics. Wants to know what is happening in the world. I couldn’t stop smiling at her — this 4’ 10” Viking amid the cowboy t-shirts.

It’s funny what we romanticize. Who we call our heroes. Who we think of as strong and brave. It is so easy to get lost in the cowboys of it all, when the real people worthy of our admiration our walking right beside us, in the racks. I mention it only so you will look around. Or maybe so you will brave the tether and let others see you.

She marveled at how tall I was, but I knew that she was the real Viking. I told her what a pleasure it had been to speak with her. Her story may not make the brochures. Maybe there is more to see in Cheyenne, but certainly there is nothing better! She will not be tethered. I carry her story with me.


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My most expensive finger.

I hit it on the door yesterday, my most expensive finger. It seems it is always taking a beating. It’s my left index finger. I am right handed, and an artist, so my right hand gets all the praise and the protection. But perhaps my left hand is the unsung hero. It’s always being asked to do the, at best unglamorous, sometimes dangerous, things, like – “Hold this nail, don’t worry, it’s just a hammer,” or “Brace the ruler while I cut with this knife.” It has been cut and battered and bruised, and it still supports, every time it is asked.

I had only been in France a short time when I cut this finger. Cut it deep. Even the tendon. I needed surgery. I had no insurance, or faith in the system, or a grasp of the language even. I was afraid. Afraid of the doctors, the procedure, how I was going to pay for it… everything. But the fear was wasted, as it is most of the time. The surgery worked. I sold a painting. My finger healed. The bill was paid. (How fitting that the right would in turn support the left.) And this most expensive finger now continues to show up daily to perform the uncelebrated tasks.

But I want to celebrate them. This finger. The unsung heroes. Those who have shown up for me daily. I hope I thank them properly. Invest in them. With time and resources, emotions and praise. They deserve it. I know I can do better. I know we can do better – investing in these everyday heroes who show up, only asking, “How can I help?”

I grab the brush with my right hand and give thanks.