Jodi Hills

So this is who I am – a writer that paints, a painter that writes…


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The thread that holds.

It was my grandma Elsie who made quilts. We have them scattered throughout our home. Each one a hug waiting to be entered. (None of them wait long.) 

My mother loved to sew. But she was more about fashion. Because it came as a surprise, (and also upon my bed in our Jefferson Street apartment), I remember exactly the time she decided to try her hand at making a quilt. I didn’t ask why. I knew pretty early on that life was a series of attempts to connect. So I joyfully slept on the side of my high school bed that was not covered in squares, resting under the watchful hands of both my mother and grandmother.

I have that quilt as well, here in France. It may be smaller in size, but it retains an equal amount of magic — this ability to draw me in, hold me, comfortably. But perhaps even more magically, it sets me free to try the things that aren’t necessarily in my skill set. To keep reaching out when connections fail. To keep believing this might be the thread that holds. 

That’s a lot to expect, you might say, of a heart’s thread, but as I step from inside a quilt’s embrace, I know, it’s not too much to ask. 

We are as strong as our connections. 


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The seams will hold.

I bought the dish towels in France. Gave them to my mother. My hands to her hands. Each trip I would cook for her. Use the towels to clean up. She would wash them. Use them. Hand to hand until we returned again. Never out of touch.

I didn’t imagine I would see them again. Until I opened the UPS box from my sister-in-law. It was that pause that your brain makes, perhaps letting your heart catch up, when I saw them. Familiar, but new. She made the towels into pot holders. She joined her hands to the chain of touch, sewing each seam beautifully. They will be in my kitchen now. Touched by my French family, as I cook for them.

Things change. Evolve. Time changes everything. Even our relationships. Even the familiar becomes new. But the seams will hold. If we allow them. If we change along with them, and keep reaching out. Hand to hand.

I have often wondered, still at times, without my mother do I still belong to this family? Do I still belong to this home town? I run my hand along the seams and hear a whispered yes.