Jodi Hills

So this is who I am – a writer that paints, a painter that writes…


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It starts with one.

Even though I paint them frequently, in tiny sketchbooks, with fine brushes, I’m still surprised at how small they are when I see them en route. The winged details, often too small for the tiniest hairs of my most intricate brush, flutter in the trees. Not disturbing a leaf, yet still able to lift my heart.

And then I’m not small anymore. I’m no longer, “but what can I do?” “There’s only me?” I see the heavy lifting of this tiny bird, this “one,” and I am reminded that that’s all it takes. One. One small detail. One effort. To make maybe not this world better, or even this day, but certainly this one moment in time, yes, better, right here, in the flutter.

So on this first day. This number one. This tiny number that we tried to issue in with a bang of promises. We welcomed perhaps with rockets red glare of dazzling hope. How do we sustain the magic? I step out and have to believe, that I am, we are, not small anymore. And maybe, just maybe, it all continues, with a flutter.

Happy New Year!


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Let’s ride!

It was around 4am that I rolled over, secure in the knowledge that I would remember the opening line for today’s blog. Did it come in a dream? Or just a dozy thought… It seemed beautiful though, this line, this moment.

I used to be so certain of so many things. That summers would last forever. And the friendships made within. School day friends seemed easier. We were thrown together daily. Delivered five days a week by bus. Guarded through the crossings. Marched into classrooms. Plopped side by side. Row by row. Friend by friend. But summer, you had to make an effort. To see your summer friends, you had to get on bikes, run through fields, skip, sweat and swim. You had to make telephone calls from kitchen mounted phones, and wait through busy signals and unanswered rings. Sone of us even wrote letters, making promises of BFFs, signing with hearts in our names, never thinking that the new school year would separate us by room and teacher.

As quickly as the summers went, the years seem to go by even faster. People and summers pass, like moments in the dawn. But still I smile, because I believe in the forever of it all — that summers don’t really die — they live on in a place that we can only reach in dozy, passing thoughts… Where my mother still plays like a little girl.

Wide-eyed awake, I see 2024 pulling up like a big orange bus, flinging open its door and welcoming us to the new year. Chubby-legged and ever hopeful, I pull myself aboard! Let’s ride!


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Tickled and tumbling.

We take turns driving. When I’m not at the wheel, I’m in charge of the Time Machine — the music. Each melody transports.

I could feel it before I hit play. Graham Nash’s “Sleep Song.” It was the first song Dominique ever sent to me. We hadn’t yet met in real life. Not that love has a final destination, but I was tumbling toward it, within it. I had just finished a gallery show. My mom came to spend the weekend. We were still in the throws of the show’s excitement. Still too engaged in our own tumble to go to sleep. I put her blow-up mattress at the foot of my bed. My phone started to ping from France. We began to giggle. All the what-ifs and could-bes of potential love are so tickling when you share it with your best friend. Then he sent the song and our laughter tears turned to tender tears. We all were dreaming, none of us asleep.

“It’s a beautiful song,” he said, hands at 9 and 3, facing Memphis. Traveling on.

People often say, “…if I only had a Time Machine…”. But we do. We carry it with us. At the speed of love.

Happy travels, my friends. We are journeying to the new year. Some loves will sit beside us. Some loves we carry in our hearts. Some are waiting, just up the road. The adventure begins, and begins…

The adventure begins.


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In a flash

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I took a photograph as ’21 turned into ’22. I shook the image into view. Winter turned to spring before my eyes, and petals fell from trees. Pinks turned into greens. Splashes in sun-warmed water sounded like promises. I put sleeves on tanned shoulders, and never dreamed goodbyes would have to be said to love that fell from the tree that gave life. Bundled and braced. Memories wintered my soul in the white of the photograph — the photograph made not with a click of shutter, but the blink of an eye. The same blink that opened ’23. 

Open lens. Open heart. Smile! I’m just getting started.


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This year.

This year,let’s say the things we never said. Let’s forgive the things we never could.Let’s love like no lessons have already been learned. Let’s dream like we have the chance,and live like we have no other.

I first showed this piece in New York. Two women from a local gallery approached it. I listened to them. “Is it only for New Year’s, you know, with the ‘this year…” one asked the other. “No, she replied, ‘this year,’ it’s the same as today, every day.” And she was right. They bought the piece. Five of them. For their gallery.


I keep it beside our bed. I read it every day. Some days, one line is easier than the other. I liken it to a golf game. Some days you can drive a mile long, and miss every putt. Your short game is good, but then there is that bunker. No one gets it completely right every day. But we keep playing. We keep trying. We keep swinging.


And so I read the words. And I try to do the best I can. I keep loving and forgiving, (even myself), and dreaming and living, because ‘this year,’ is ‘this day,’ and I don’t want to miss it. It will be like no other!!!

Happy New Year!