The patience of croissants.
I eased into baking. Perhaps I had been waiting for permission, or an invitation into the kitchen, and both finally came when I moved to France.
I started slowly, a few cookies. And I always searched for the kind of recipe that didn’t have to be chilled. I couldn’t possibly wait an hour. I’m not sure what I was in a hurry for, but I was – once started, it had to be done! I slowly branched out into those that needed to be chilled. I must admit, at first I didn’t chill the dough for the minimum of one hour, but tried putting the dough in the freezer for 30 minutes. Oh, patience. Or was it control? Either way, I slowly loosened the reins and as the dough chilled, so too did I.
I started making bread. This took more patience, half a day. Then brioche, a full day. Then croissant, two days. Two days! I wasn’t in a hurry. I wasn’t in control. And I was fine. The dough was in control. It knew what needed to be done and I went along with it. Rolled with it. Let it chill in between. And rolled with it again. The first time our home had the scent of a boulangerie, I knew it was worth it! This was the reward. A fresh buttery croissant, that came from hands, both in the work, and the letting go.
I often have to tell myself to breathe. To do the work, and then let go. The work has always come more easily to me, but I’m learning each day how to trust the process, trust the time given, trust the “dough.” With that, the process has too become the reward, not the punishment. And the result, each day becomes, well, just a little more delicious!
Here comes the sun! Bon appétit!